Will you still love me even if I’m not perfect? Will you still love me even if I’m not the kind of person you wished I were? Will you still look into my eyes with warmth even if you saw my shadows? Will you still hold my hand even if you knew there will be times I’d let you down? For though I yearn to take care of you as I should, though I desire to love you with a love that never falters and fades, my knees tremble this very moment that you hold me in your arms.

Shall I kiss you? Shall I hold your hand and bask in the light of your spirit knowing that I have my darkness, knowing there will be times that the light of my love will sometimes be overshadowed by the darkness that is in me?

Sometimes I’d be silent and I might bore you. I may not laugh at your jokes, and you may not understand the spell that’s enshrouding me. Sometimes I’d get troubled and I’d fail to put into words what the hell it is that troubles me. I wouldn’t be good company then, and I couldn’t make you smile.

Sometimes I’d get moody and I might not enjoy the things you’d like us to do together. Sometimes I’d lose my temper and I’d no longer act like the fine person who stands before you today. Sometimes I’d get jealous and I might say things I don’t really mean. Sometimes I’d talk too much that I might drive you away.

Sometimes I’d get touchy and I’d get easily hurt. And no matter how mature I try to be, at times I’d act in childish ways. I’d demand things I shouldn’t, I’d say things I shouldn’t say. And no matter how much I desire to protect you and make you happy, sometimes I’d be the one who’d cause you the most pain.

If you will love me I cannot promise you that I will not hurt you. I cannot promise you that I will not make you cry and that I’ll never break your heart. But if you will love me, I will bare my whole self naked before you, and I will reveal to you my soul. If you will love me, you can be certain that it is I that you will love, not a mask that fools you and gives you only what your eyes desire to see. If you will love me, you can be certain that you will love the depths of me, all of me that is in me, and I in turn will love you with all of me, with all my soul, with all my mind, with all my spirit, with all my flaws and beauty, and with all my very heart.

From: itakeoffthemask.com

LIFE STATEMENT

I will go through this life only once,
and I shall have but one chance to live;
Not all people will like me,
others may even despise me,
as I may not be easily understood;
Yet I will take this chance to live,
and I will reach out in ways I know;
I will love those whom I can,
and I will strive to understand them more;
Not all days will bring me sunshine,
so I will rejoice also for the rain;
Not every endeavor will be a success,
but I will savor the victories I achieve;
Not all dreams I dream will be mine,
but in time new dreams will fill my heart,
and as from a star those hopes will propel me forward
doing everything the best way I know I can;
No fear shall trample me whatsoever,
though some tasks seem to outweigh my strength;
I will only do what I have to do,
and God will take care of the rest!

Source: itakeoffthemask.com

Often, we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to..
Though that doesn’t mean that we’ve stopped loving them..
Or we’ve stopped to care..
Sometimes goodbye…is a painful way to say I love you..
But how can I forget you when your always on my mind?
How can I not want you when you’re all I want inside?
How can I let you go when I can’t see us apart?
How can I not love you when you control my heart?
The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn’t want to be held on to..
Real tears are not those that fall from the eyes and cover the face…
But those that fall from the heart and cover the soul.
Sometimes I wish I had never never met you..
Because then I could go to bed at night…
Not knowing there was someone like you out there.
I don’t know what to do now that we’re apart; I don’t know how to live without the other half of my heart.
Maybe if I had just looked away that first day you came towards me everything would be different.
And my heart wouldn’t be breaking right now.
I always know looking back on the tears would make me laugh..
But I never know looking back on the laugh would make me cry.

A million words wouldn’t bring you back…I know because I’ve tried..
Neither would a million tears..I know I’ve cried..

They say that if you love someone you should let them go,
But they never say what to do when they don’t come back.
I don’t remember us but when I do…
It brings a smile to my lips and a tear to my eye.
I will never regret loving you… only believing you loved me too…
How can I love again…
When I can’t stop loving the one that hurt me so much?
My heart only fought for what it wanted.
Now my heart is having to fight to let you go.
Every moment I spend by your side, I feel a stab within my heart…
As I come to realize that the tears that fall from my eyes…
Are truly the blood from my broken heart…
Every morning I wish it were night again…
For it is only at night and in the depth of my dreams that I can feel you..
If you love something, let it go, if it comes back to you it was truly meant to be. They say “never regret the past because at one point everything was what you wanted” but what if what I wanted then makes me cry.

I thought I would die if I couldn’t have you.
Now that I know I can’t have you, death seems inferior.
I cried when I know I lost you, afraid I had lost it all.
Then I realized that losing you, didn’t have to mean I lost me.
Only love can break a heart; only love can mend it again.
How can I see what’s in front of me, when I’m blinded by tears..
Love can come and go, but your heart will remain in you forever…

- vainly

Closing your eyes,
You see my face,
Burning your soul,
You feel no trace,
Of the pain I bring into your life,
Using my metiforical knife,
Slicing and dicing,
Until there’s nothing left,
Not caring what words I speak,
As if your deaf,
Just another wound to add to the collection,
Choosing your soul,
As my celection,
I’m your nightmare of dreams,
Your hatred of sin,
Yet you still can’t leave,
The love I bring.

Ema Scott

A wonderful reader of mine sent in his original poem to be published in this blog. Stephen, your work is great, and it’s my pleasure to share it with everybody. Thank you for sharing it with us. Here is his poem:

A nervous glance to air
returned without a glow—
A smile behind thin glass
the mask to cover wholes.
We locked our hands in bliss
and never let them go;
We fell to pieces with
no fears inside to grow.

Our past is distant but
some memories are bold;
Our eyes closed tight we have
no tears for saving soul.
A nervous glance to air
returned without a glow—
A smile behind thin glass
the mask to cover wholes.

SM Laforce-–Feb 08

Memories…
Sometimes they creep up at you,
Quite unexpectedly.
Dragging you back to a place…
You wish you’d never return to.
Bittersweet memories…
Of a past long gone…
Memories that were once moments…
Bringing back old wounds…
And familiar pangs of regret…
Glimpses of people and places,
That you want to escape from…
Wishing you could just let go…
Wishing you could just be free…
Leave them all behind, forever…
But then you never really do forget…
Because they cling to you.
Until little reminders bring them back
To consciousness again…
And you feel the waves of nostalgia,
Washing over you…
Tears are threatening to fall…
Memories come in a stampeding rush.
Both the good ones and the bad…
But it’s the good ones that hurt more…
They’re the ones that stay longer…
They’re the ones you long for…
But the truth is…
That’s all they are now…
Just memories, floating in the wind…
Just memories…

Copyright©2008angel

I looked at the clock ticking,
I asked myself, what if I can turn back time?

I’ll turn the hands back to 10 minutes ago…
My co-worker came to talk to me about a problem
But I was too irritated… I couldn’t even smile at her.

I’ll turn the hands back to 12 hours ago…
My brother asked for help with homework
But I was too busy… I snapped at him and turned him down.

I’ll turn the hands back to 8 days ago…
My friend came to apologize for a mistake she did
But I was so hurt… I stuck to my pride and turned away.

I’ll turn the hands back to 5 months ago…
My father scolded me for staying out too late at night
But I was so angry… I said hurtful things and walked away.

I’ll turn the hands back to 3 years ago…
I took someone for granted, and now he’s gone,
To a place where I can’t follow…

If only I could turn back the hands of time
If only I could… I’ll do everything right.

Copyright©2008angel

I thought you said it would be you and me forever… I thought you said you’d never leave… You said you’d never stop loving me, and I believed you. But then one day, you walked away… I don’t know what went wrong… I wanted to stop you, but I wasn’t sure I could… or if I even should…

There have been times in the past when you walked away from me but you always came back… But now it’s different… I have this hollow feeling in the pit of my stomach, that this time, you’ll be gone for good… And it hurts… To watch the man I love leaving… To watch my baby walk away from me… But I know you had to…

When you walked away… I felt no bitterness or regret as I slowly watched your back disappear from view… What I felt was bittersweet longing of a love that once was, but never will be again… And now you’re gone to a place where I couldn’t be with you… Where all our memories will, from now on, only be from a distant past… You don’t need me anymore… So I’m letting you go, and I’ll send all my love with you…

Copyright©2008angel

“When these days are gone, when the love you once feel for me slowly fades away, when your smile and laugh is only here as a dream, and when the words ‘I love you’ are scripts of the past, I’ll always have the memories that were once moments, and I’ll always know that no matter what, I got the chance to love you the best way I can.”

It’s been a while… I should say,
But still feels like yesterday…
When you held my hand and touched my face,
When you hugged me close in a warm embrace…
Sometimes I could still hear your laughter,
Ever so slowly, softened into a whisper…
At times, I could still feel your kiss,
As I reminisce the times I so often miss…
I miss our talks and our moments together,
The special times we thought would last forever…
But now you’re gone and I’m left feeling blue,
Can’t deny the fact that I’m missing you…
But as a tear falls from the corner of my eye,
I know I have to stop believing this lie…
Wherever you are, I hope you feel it too,
And know that for always, I’ll miss you…

Copyright©2008angel

This is a poem I’ve written years ago when I was bored and didn’t have anything to do. I was so bummed, and I stopped writing for a while, so I decided to whip up a little something. It’s not about anyone in particular, I don’t even know why it turned out this way, but nevertheless, I think it speaks for itself. Read it and tell me what you think it’s about.

Once again, she’s alone in her room
Pondering about what she is to the world.
She wears a mask, to hide her pain
So no one will see…
She whispers something, but nobody hears her
She begs for freedom, but the world is blind to her pleas
She shouts her love to the world,
But the world is deaf to her cries
Her shouts… barely a ripple…
In a sea of people, judging her and condemning her
What has she done wrong?
All she did was be true to herself
And love unconditionally…
But to the world, her love is worthless
To the world her love is wrong
So what’s the use of hoping?
No one will understand.
So she bows down and gracefully exits.
She has a secret. A beautiful secret.
But no one will ever know.

Copyright©2008angel