What should I do with my life?

Honestly, I really don’t have an answer to this question right now. There are days when I’d just wake up, go through the motions of everyday life, feeling like each day is just the same old boring routine that I have to go through. It’s like I’m on autopilot, just going through the familiar motions, waking up, going to work, spending 8 hours in front of a desk, then going back home to sleep, repeating the whole cycle again the next day. It’s fine, I do get some enjoyment along the way, in the form of friends, family, loved ones, and interesting happenings, but at the end of the day, I still feel like there’s something missing.

It’s like at the back of my mind, I know that there’s still so much out there for me to do. I have this unsettling feeling that keeps nagging me, making me feel like I’m not supposed to be where I am right now, that I should be somewhere else. I feel like I’m merely existing, contented in living the same old boring routine everyday. My inner voice is practically screaming to me, telling me that I should be doing something else with my life, and not waste it behind some desk, doing a boring, mind-dulling job day after day. Don’t get me wrong, I’m grateful for my job, it has helped me a lot. But right now, I feel like 3 years is enough, and I have this urge to move on and try something new.

I’ve tried convincing myself, I’ve tried extending my patience, I’ve tried coming up with reasons for me to stay where I am… and I’ve done okay for a while, but now, I feel like I just can’t take the monotony anymore. I have to get out of here! I have to get out of this office, this city, this country! To be completely honest, I’m just waiting for the perfect opportunity to leave. I want to leave everything behind and explore new places and things. I don’t know where that is, and yes, there’s the fear of uncertainty, but that’s what makes it even more exciting. And that’s what I badly need in my life right now. I miss that feeling. Somehow, the excitement of life just got lost in the daily grind. But I need to get it back! There’s this glowing light inside me, motivating me to LIVE life to the fullest. But how can I do that in a place where I’m not even happy anymore? I want to truly LIVE life, I want to truly experience it, and not just be contented in merely existing.

I look at other people and I see that their lives have some form of direction, and then I look at myself, and I realize, I don’t really know what I want! All I have are theories and abstracts that I don’t know how to bring to fruition. I don’t even know where to start! Should I quit my job, even though I don’t have other opportunities lined up? Do I just get up and leave, adopt the motto, “Come what may” and plunge into the unknown? A part of me is seeking some form of security, of course, but another part of me wants to experience the thrill of the unknown. Through the uncertainties and questions, one thing is clear to me. I don’t want another year to go by with me still stuck in this rut. I haven’t done anything worthwhile, haven’t experienced anything that I can say I really enjoyed…I have to get a move on!

But still the question stands, what should I do with my life? Honestly, I don’t know what I should do at this point. I’m so confused and restless, I have to do something, ANYTHING, soon. I don’t want to reach a point where I’ll regret not having lived a good life, and worst of all, it’s going to be too late to do something about it.

Are you living your life, or are you merely existing?

Copyright©2008angel

One of my favorite parts of the house is the bathroom. Why? Well, because it’s a private sanctuary where you can relax and relieve yourself at the same time. That’s why it should be clean and fragrant and should exude a sense of freshness. I love seeing bathrooms that are one of a kind. I’ve seen one before that’s like paradise. When you go inside, you’ll feel like you’re in a tropical island complete with stones on the floor, plants, waterfall in the walls, and the whole room smells like lilies. And their’s was one of the most beautiful toilets I’ve ever seen (or sat on, for that matter). It’s marvelous, I felt like I could stay there and have a nice bubble bath for hours. Haha. Have you ever seen a bathroom so beautiful and different that you can’t forget it?

CHARMED has got to be my favorite TV show of all time! Ever since Day 1, I’ve followed this amazing series, and I have to say, it’s been part of my life since! They’ve been over for years now, but I still can’t get enough of it!

Charmed is a very popular show, but for those of you who are not familiar with it, let me just squeeze in a quick description. The show is about three sisters who are the world’s most powerful good witches, known throughout the supernatural community as “The Charmed Ones” but known to everyone else as the Halliwells. Each sister possesses unique magical powers that grow and evolve over the course of their lives. The Charmed Ones live together in a manor and use their supernatural abilities to battle the warlocks and demons and other evil forces that populate San Francisco, California.

It is such a terrific show. Personally, I’m very much fascinated by magic, and the thought of having special powers just piques my interest to no end. I especially like the fact that the show doesn’t just focus on magic or witchcraft alone, but they also portray the sisters as normal people, with normal lives (except they have to fight demons, which is not THAT normal, hehe). But anyway, I can totally relate! I remember all too well how the show made me laugh and cry, and gave me all these different emotions even from watching just one episode. I would anxiously wait for the next episode every week, and it’s just been part of my weekly routine that when for some reason, I don’t get to watch one episode, I would get really down and pissed off. Hehe.

I guess what I’m really trying to say is… I love, love, love the show! Charmed is a show packed with action, drama, humor, magic, all rolled into one! What more could you ask for, right? But like everything else, all good things must come to an end. The show ended after it’s 8th season in 2006, and needless to say, I’m one of the thousands of people out there who wished Charmed had stayed on forever. But! As I say farewell to Charmed, I’m not completely sad, because I got myself a complete set of Charmed DVD’s from season 1-8! Yay! Now I get to watch my favorite episodes over and over again! Ain’t it grand?!

Copyright©2008angel

Bkk Fan wanted to know about my favorite books, so I’m writing this post. There are more books that could go into my favorites list but I’m just picking 5, and here they are:

Boy Meets Girl - I love this book. And it came to me at a timely manner too. I was badly in need of God’s guidance in my relationship, and this book taught me so much. I cried with this book, and I’m not ashamed to admit it. You guys should check this out, it’s basically about courtship and it contains a lot of valuable lessons that teach us how we should lift up our love lives to God, because He knows what’s good for us. It helps to know that no matter how many heartbreaks and frustrations we experience in our search for the ONE, we can trust that God is working behind the scenes to come up with the perfect love story for us. Totally worth the read!

The Purpose Driven Life - Another inspirational book that will forever stay in my conscience. It talks about life and how we should live it with purpose. I was able to gather a lot of footnotes while reading this book, and I kept it in a notebook that I still read from time to time to remind me of the most important points. It also teaches us that everything happens for a reason. It’s really a life changing book.

Harry Potter - Well, what can I say… Harry Potter Books 1-7 really got me addicted at one point. These books brought back the child in me, as I explored the world of magic, friendship and love with Harry and his friends. These are the books that had me laughing and crying every time I read (and reread) them. It was a mixture of relief and sadness when I got to the last book.

Who Moved My Cheese? - I wrote a review about this book in one of my earlier posts. I still stand by what I said, this book caused such a change in me, that I’ll forever be grateful for it.

The Alchemist - This is the latest book I’ve read. Actually, I just read this because it’s popular and I wanted to know what it’s all about. Turns out, I enjoyed it. Pretty boring at certain points, but when you look at the overall plot, it’s good, and it actually makes you think about LIFE. It talks about DREAMS, and how we have the power to follow them and make them come true if only we have the patience and determination to do it. I particularly love the way the story ended.

Books I Want To Read (but haven’t yet):

• My Best Friend’s Girl - Dorothy Koomson
• The Secret - Rhonda Byrne
• Twilight Series - Stephenie Meyer
• The Shack - William Paul Young

What are your favorite books?

Copyright©2008angel

Hey guys! Do you want to suggest a certain topic for me to write about? I would love to hear your suggestions and ideas. Any topic about life, love, friendship, family, etc. are welcome. Just no obscenities please. Let’s keep it wholesome. Look over the categories to give you an idea what topics I usually include in my blog. I admit, sometimes it’s hard to think of a topic to write about, so I’m asking for your help guys. Comment on this post for your suggestions or you can email me instead. Looking forward to your ideas! Thanks!

Are you single and tired of being alone? You have a desire in your heart to meet someone who you can share your life with, who you can love and who will love you back, but somehow, that person hasn’t arrived yet and you’re wondering… will the time ever come?

It’s a big and complicated world out there, and people have a hard time finding each other. Yeah, you probably look around and see couples around you, and you think why can’t I be like them? Why can’t I find a partner like they have? And you turn to God, asking why He hasn’t given you what He had given everyone else… a perfect match. There’s an unmistakable longing in your heart to fall in love and be happy. But the perfect guy or girl just hasn’t come yet!

It’s hard, and frustrating… but you know what, when you ask God all these questions, like “WHY?” or “WHEN?”, don’t think He doesn’t hear you because He DOES. You say, “But I’ve been praying for this my whole life, and yet I still haven’t found the one.” And you become impatient and even more lonely… But always remember that God has His own perfect timing. He hears what is in your heart, your desires and your prayers, and He will give what you want in His OWN TIME. He knows EXACTLY what you need at a certain point in your life, and He also knows when to give you the things that you’re asking for. All you have to do is to continue TRUSTING and wait patiently for that time. It’s definitely easier said than done, but have FAITH. God promised to bring you love, and HE will fulfill it when the right time comes.

God knows everything, He knows the person that’s meant entirely for us, where that person is, what that person is going through, and one day, He will bring that person to our lives, He will take that person by the hand and lead them to us, so we can experience true love. We just have to BELIEVE.

There’s this song that’s just so inspiring and speaks about God bringing two people together, it’s entitled “He Brought Me To You”. The lyrics and words are beautiful and the song relays a wonderful message about God bringing love into our lives. If you’ve been waiting for so long and you’re losing hope and thinking of giving up… think again. Just hang in there. God will bring you love, He will bring you to the person meant for you, when the RIGHT time comes.

Have you found the one meant for you?

Copyright©2008angel

Which do you think is better, Mac or PC? I’ve never tried a Mac, but they say it’s supposed to be really cool and superior than it’s PC counterpart. For me, I grew up using PC with Windows, so I can’t really compare it with the Mac, but if given the chance, I think I would be able to see whether what they’re all saying is true: that Mac is so much better. What is it about Mac anyway? It’s supposed to be a more reliable machine with no crashing problems, and it has a very comfortable environment to work with. Some people who have tried Mac say they won’t go back to PC. Now, I’m intrigued. I want to try the Mac experience! Hehe. If I were to own a Mac, I would have to be sure to upgrade the Mac memory, have some really cool programs and games installed and make sure that my machine is working fast enough. Of course, I’m just daydreaming again, but hey, you never know right? Maybe someone out there is going to give me Mac. LOL.

There’s just so many technological innovations in this day and age, there are so many advances in science, technology, electronics… that it’s hard to keep up! Just recently, I was at the office and our technician was talking about electronic stuff. I don’t really know much about electronics but I listened in anyway. He was talking about DVD players and cables, and interfaces. Then he mentioned about HDMI. I was intrigued because that was the first time I came across this term, so I asked him what it means. He said it stands for High-Definition Multimedia Interface. I said, well, that sounds even more complicated. He laughed and proceeded to explain what it means. I can’t really relate to the things he said but I remember he said something about an HDMI wall plate and how it provides an interface between any audio/video source, like with DVD players or monitors. I found it really interesting, actually. Complicated, but interesting. Sometimes it’s just so unbelievable how people could come up with amazing innovations. I told him I’m not well versed in electronics and I’m not any good at them, but he told me that’s okay. I’m not the only one. Hahaha. How about you? Can you relate?

“Can’t we start over again?”

Have you experienced saying these words to someone you love? It’s hard to say goodbye to the one we love. So we do all we can to save our relationships when it’s on the verge of breaking up. It doesn’t hurt so much to the one leaving, but to the one left behind, it’s painful. That’s why we do whatever we can to hold on, to work things out, to make everything right again.

In relationships, there will always be problems and hardships that couples have to experience in order to grow and test their love for each other. And when these problems occur, there’s always the risk of the relationship not being able to pull through, that’s why it results in a breakup. But there are relationships that are resilient and are able to recover from the blow, and as a result, the couple’s love for each other becomes stronger than ever. This takes a lot of effort and commitment on both parties to decide to work things out.

Petty fights and little misunderstandings are part of a normal relationship. But when big problems occur, like cheating, lying big time, family issues, etc., these are capable of ruining the relationship altogether. And after some time, taking into consideration all the hurt and pain that the problem caused, the couple can either decide to start over again or breakup for good.

In the case of a man wanting to leave because he’s had enough or no longer wants to be in the relationship, and the woman is still very much in love and refuses to accept the man’s decision, then she can probably ask for another chance, or ask if they can start all over again. But she has to be ready for the answer. This can work in some cases, but when the mind’s made up and the relationship is beyond repair, there’s no turning back.

Relationships are complicated in the sense that sometimes, it’s not always black and white. Feelings change, situations change, and most importantly, people change. Problems are just precursors, but ultimately, we are the ones who decide. It’s okay to ask for another chance, but after all is said and done, we have to respect our partner’s decision. Because we can’t force someone to feel a certain feeling just because we want them to. We have to be ready to hear the truth and accept it, no matter how difficult. Keep this in mind, the next time you find yourself asking, “Can’t We Start Over Again?”

Will you still hold on when he says “enough”?

Copyright©2008angel

To my Father, Brother, Best Friend, and Savior…

I’m taking this chance to thank you for everything you’ve done for me. No words can describe how grateful I am that you’re with me. All through my life, you never left my side, through the good times and the bad. I’ve been through so much, been through a lot of hurt and miserable moments, and through all that, you’ve helped me overcome my fears, my doubts, my weaknesses. I never could have done it without you. You helped me realize my worth, you made me feel that I am loved, no matter what.

Thank you so much… there have been times when I thought I couldn’t take the pain anymore, there were times when I felt I could no longer stand the loneliness, but you were there to comfort me and tell me that everything is going to be all right. Through wonderful people and things, you reached out to me and reminded me that life goes on. Because of you, I saw that life is worth living, that there’s still so much in store for me, that I shouldn’t waste my life in unimportant things. You taught me how to TRUST, and you strengthened my FAITH. It wasn’t easy, but I did it. I did it because you were there… you held my hand… and that was all I needed.

I’m so BLESSED to have you. Thank you for protecting my heart, I feel so at peace when I know that you’re in control. I don’t ever wanna be without you. Thank you for using me for your glory. I love you so much.

With all my heart,
Angel

I attended a friend’s wedding this weekend and I was pleasantly surprised when my friend (the bride) sang one of my favorite songs ever, Something In Your Eyes, by Dusty Springfield. She cried when she was singing, and I almost cried with her. I love the song so much, that’s why I couldn’t help but become teary-eyed while I was watching her sing the song to her new husband. Theirs is a beautiful love story and I’m so happy she found her perfect match. Check out the lyrics of the song here.

I think Something In Your Eyes is a really beautiful song. It has such a wonderful melody, and the words have so much meaning. I love Dusty’s voice on it too. Try to listen to the message of the song, and I’m sure, if you have experienced love, or know what love is, you’ll appreciate the song. It speaks of love, how after all the waiting and loving, they end up together, forever. Seeing that something in your lover’s eyes, you know where you’re life is leading to… a life with that person. If I were to get married someday to the love of my life, I’ll definitely sing this song to him. What can I say, I’m a hopeless romantic, so just listening to this song, gives me goosebumps.

Seeing my dear friend marry the person she loves and the perfect match for her… it’s a wonderful feeling. I could see the happiness and love in their eyes as they looked at each other. There’s something in their eyes that’s unmistakably real and true. It’s wonderfully amazing to see my friend so radiant and happy on her wedding day. She has been through so much in her life, and she deserves this guy who loves her unconditionally. I’m just so happy for her.

Copyright©2008angel

When I look at myself in the mirror, I see an imperfect person. Just trying to fit in… trying to do my best in this crazy world. Sometimes it’s hard when I see people around me and I get discouraged, but one thing I constantly remind myself, is never to let them destroy my faith and beliefs. Because these are the things that make me the person that I am. I refuse to let other people get me down. The world may have so much evil in it, but it’s also full of good… of love and hope. And that’s what I want to incorporate into my own world. Someday, I’d like to look at myself in the mirror, and what I’d want to feel is contentment. More than anything else, I’d like to look at myself and be satisfied about how I lived my life. When all else is said and done, I’d like to be able to smile and say to myself, I did my best.

Copyright©2008angel