He hurt me a lot. But it was something that I had to go through. If I hadn’t gone through it, I wouldn’t be who I am now. There was no getting around it. The pain was excruciating. He was my first and only love after all. But as I try to remember the exact same feeling I felt back then, I couldn’t anymore. It has become a distant echo. The claws of pain and jealousy before was clutching and ripping my heart into tiny little pieces, but slowly as time passed by, I felt its grip loosen. Until I could no longer feel it. It lost its power over me. He lost his power over me.

For the first time in years, I feel FREE. My happiness doesn’t depend on him anymore. I have always imagined that I could never live without him. But I was wrong. Now, everything changed. My whole perception changed. There’s a little uncertainty in my future, like who I’m going to end up with, but I’m not worried about it. Not knowing is kind of exciting actually. The love I felt for him is still there, and I don’t think it will ever really die. But it’s not the kind of love that used to overpower me. Instead, it turned to the kind of love that acknowledges he was a huge part of my life and that I will always treasure the memories. I will always love him, just on a different level.

So for those who are brokenhearted right now, don’t despair too much. Grieve, but know that in time, you will be okay. You will be able to HEAL and MOVE ON. I was able to do it, so can you.

So sad… why is it that love isn’t enough? Sometimes I wish there are no other factors except love. If only the people we love are destined to be with us, how happier this world will be. But alas, LOVE isn’t enough. So that even though we love someone, we gotta let them go. Because we have to.

Yes! Totally! Actually, I could mention a few songs where a certain line reminds me of someone I can’t forget. For instance, there’s that line in Natalie Cole’s “Someone That I Used To Love“… it says… “Though you’re someone in this world that I’ll always choose to love, from now on you’re only someone that I used to love.” And from Barry Manilow’s “Somewhere Down The Road“, the line that said, “We had the right love, at the wrong time…” Or Phyllis Hyman’s “Old Friend“ which says… “You touched my life in such a special way.“

Music is something that moves us. We love music not just because of the melodies, but because of the lyrics. We can relate to a certain song, especially if the lyrics applies to us, or there’s something in the song that reminds us of someone or an experience we had. That’s the beauty of music. Which line in a song reminds you of a particular someone?

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Through every struggle, you were there. Through every crying session, every tear, every pain, you were there to help me overcome it all. I couldn’t have made it this far without you Lord. You’ve seen me through everything. Through my worst days and my worst moments. Please guide my decisions, lead me to the right path. I’ve been lost so many times, and sometimes I still feel lost. But please take my hand and lead me to where you want me to be. Because that’s also where I want to be. I’m sick and tired of living a life with no direction. I’ve had it with toxic situations and being pretentious. I just want to get away from all that Lord. Please help me. Please lead the way. I am almost out, though not completely. But I’m almost there! Please don’t let me go back to being miserable. I want a peaceful and happy life. I want to live a life where I am not hurting anybody. A life without anger and bitterness and enemies. Please help me find myself once again Lord. After everything that I’ve gone through, I know I deserve to be happy too. And I’m willing to work on that. But I need all the help I could get. I can’t do this without you Lord. I need you.

Sometimes, we come to a point in our lives when we ask ourselves, “Where do we go from here?” or maybe something like, “What do I really want to do with my life?” I just watched the movie “The Bucket List” a while ago for the second time, and again, I was faced with similar questions. Let me add this one though, “Are you really making the most out of your life or are you contented with merely existing?” I tried to rack my brains and really determine what it is that I want in life. I can only come up with one thing bright and clear. I want to travel. I want to get out and explore the world out there.

Sounds normal, right? But for me, it’s kind of leaning more towards wishful thinking. We all know that traveling entails huge amounts of money. And with the income I have, it’s just not enough. But as always, positive thinking is best right? It’s the secret to life. If you think something is true, it’s going to manifest in your life. Well, it doesn’t hurt to try.

Try listing down the things you want to do. You can create your own Bucket List and try to live your life differently. Do something random or crazy once in a while. Life should be fun, not boring. Try something new everyday, or every week! We all need to stop for a few moments and re-evaluate our lives. After all, we never know when we’re going to kick the bucket, right? So live it up!

Make Up My Heart by Starlight Express - I love this song! I heard it in a radio once, and I liked it instantly. The melody is great, it has that 80’s feel to it. For some reason, I feel mellow and nostalgic listening to it. Check it out…

Hey guys!!! I’m really sorry for the deleted images in my posts and the category mess up. I transferred to a new server and for some reason the images just disappeared! Please bear with me…

It’s been so long since I posted a personal entry here. Been busy with other things. Anyway, I’m feeling a little sentimental right now… I’m currently listening to Phyllis Hyman’s Old Friend, and it’s a very sad song that I feel quite melancholic listening to it.

Anyway, I’m sorry if I’m not able to write here that much. I hope you can browse through the articles and write-ups from previous months, I’m sure you haven’t read them all… so for the meantime, head on over to the archives and look up some past posts. I’ll be writing some entries here once I feel the need to get things out. Haha. Take care everyone!

I’ve known this song ever since, and I’ve always liked it. But when I heard it again sung in a bar last week, I grew even fonder of it. There’s something oddly different when you hear a beautiful song played in a public place, as opposed to just listening to it in your iPod or mp3 player. The minute I heard the song sung by the female member of the acoustic band on the bar that night, I’ve been playing the song repeatedly in my iPod for about a week now. It’s so beautiful and nostalgic… love it!

A million times or more I thought about you
The years, the tears, the laughter, things we used to do
Are memories that warm me like a sunny day
You touched my life in such a special way

I miss the way you’d run your fingers through my hair
Those cozy nights we cuddled in your easy chair
Oh no, I won’t let foolish pride turn you away
I’ll take you back whatever price I pay

Old friend
It’s so nice to feel you hold me again
No, it doesn’t matter where you have been
My heart welcomes you back home again

Remember those romantic walks we used to take
You held my hand in such a way my knees would shake
You can’t imagine just how much I’ve needed you
I’ve never loved someone as I love you

Old friend
This is where our happy ending begins
Yes, I’m sure this time that we’re gonna win
Welcome back into my life again

Yes, I’ve tried to live my life without you
Knowing I had lost my closest friend
And though I’m feeling low from time to time
Knowing I will never find the kind of love
I had when you were mine

Welcome back into my life again

Valentine’s Day is fast approaching… and for happy couples, it certainly is a day to look forward to. But what if you’re single, brokenhearted, or alone during Valentine’s day? Are you looking forward to celebrate the day as well?

Take a look around. You see all these couples together… holding hands, having fun, and looking so in love… It’s perfectly normal to feel sad, because let’s face it… Valentine’s day does really feel like this HUGE NEON LOVE sign that seems to sneer at you, taunting you. And you can’t help but wish… if only you had that special someone that you could kiss and cuddle with… then you would have a reason to celebrate the occasion.

Aahhh.. love is in the air. But if you’re reading this, and you’re single… don’t lose heart, light that face up, and don’t feel too sorry for yourself. Valentine’s Day is a day of love and romance, but that doesn’t mean that you don’t deserve to make the day fun and memorable for you. I think singles have as much right to celebrate Valentine’s as do couples, right?

There are a lot of things you can do to get through the day. Treat yourself to something good. You don’t need a lover to make you happy, and you know it. It’s probably easier said than done, but hey… you can do it! Here are just a few tips to get you started: Go to a spa, pamper yourself to a day of rest and relaxation. Gather your single friends and go out for drinks, or do something fun, like dancing. Work out in the gym. Go malling or shopping. If you don’t want to be alone during the night, invite friends over and you can have your very own little party. The point is to have a good time, and not feel sorry for yourself just because you happen to be unattached at the moment. Do that, and February 14 shouldn’t be such a dreadful day.

Honestly, Valentine’s Day is really no different from any other day, it’s a holiday created by Hallmark for crying out loud! So don’t beat yourself up if you happen to be dateless. Think positive and be happy! You owe it to yourself.

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