What should I do with my life?

Honestly, I really don’t have an answer to this question right now. There are days when I’d just wake up, go through the motions of everyday life, feeling like each day is just the same old boring routine that I have to go through. It’s like I’m on autopilot, just going through the familiar motions, waking up, going to work, spending 8 hours in front of a desk, then going back home to sleep, repeating the whole cycle again the next day. It’s fine, I do get some enjoyment along the way, in the form of friends, family, loved ones, and interesting happenings, but at the end of the day, I still feel like there’s something missing.

It’s like at the back of my mind, I know that there’s still so much out there for me to do. I have this unsettling feeling that keeps nagging me, making me feel like I’m not supposed to be where I am right now, that I should be somewhere else. I feel like I’m merely existing, contented in living the same old boring routine everyday. My inner voice is practically screaming to me, telling me that I should be doing something else with my life, and not waste it behind some desk, doing a boring, mind-dulling job day after day. Don’t get me wrong, I’m grateful for my job, it has helped me a lot. But right now, I feel like 3 years is enough, and I have this urge to move on and try something new.

I’ve tried convincing myself, I’ve tried extending my patience, I’ve tried coming up with reasons for me to stay where I am… and I’ve done okay for a while, but now, I feel like I just can’t take the monotony anymore. I have to get out of here! I have to get out of this office, this city, this country! To be completely honest, I’m just waiting for the perfect opportunity to leave. I want to leave everything behind and explore new places and things. I don’t know where that is, and yes, there’s the fear of uncertainty, but that’s what makes it even more exciting. And that’s what I badly need in my life right now. I miss that feeling. Somehow, the excitement of life just got lost in the daily grind. But I need to get it back! There’s this glowing light inside me, motivating me to LIVE life to the fullest. But how can I do that in a place where I’m not even happy anymore? I want to truly LIVE life, I want to truly experience it, and not just be contented in merely existing.

I look at other people and I see that their lives have some form of direction, and then I look at myself, and I realize, I don’t really know what I want! All I have are theories and abstracts that I don’t know how to bring to fruition. I don’t even know where to start! Should I quit my job, even though I don’t have other opportunities lined up? Do I just get up and leave, adopt the motto, “Come what may” and plunge into the unknown? A part of me is seeking some form of security, of course, but another part of me wants to experience the thrill of the unknown. Through the uncertainties and questions, one thing is clear to me. I don’t want another year to go by with me still stuck in this rut. I haven’t done anything worthwhile, haven’t experienced anything that I can say I really enjoyed…I have to get a move on!

But still the question stands, what should I do with my life? Honestly, I don’t know what I should do at this point. I’m so confused and restless, I have to do something, ANYTHING, soon. I don’t want to reach a point where I’ll regret not having lived a good life, and worst of all, it’s going to be too late to do something about it.

Are you living your life, or are you merely existing?

Copyright©2008angel

(I found this one in the Internet, and I loved the message, that’s why I’m sharing it with you guys… hope you get something out of it.)

Pain was not part of God’s original design. Love, on the other hand, was, and God knew that in order for love to exist, free will would also have to exist. In a world where He gave humans the choice to love or hate, He knew some would choose the latter and PAIN would inevitably be the price.

Yet pain breaks God’s heart, and so God has taken man’s misuse and abuse of free will and redeemed it. God isn’t about righting all the wrongs on Earth. But, He is big on taking the wrongs and making something beautiful of them. And so He constantly offers opportunities for His children to exercise that free will in love towards one another, so that some of what has been broken can be remade. Pain offers opportunity for growth in love.

Also, pain is a unique opportunity for humanity to choose whether it will love God for who He is, rather than for the gifts that He bestows upon His creation. Granted, God loves to give to His children. But in a life void of suffering, there would also be little need to love God for any reason beyond his role as Santa Claus. God wants to be loved for who He is — for His mercy, grace, kindness, compassion, and other attributes — and not because He makes life easy for us.

Finally, God allows pain to remind us that our home is not in this world, that our real life begins in the afterlife, in Heaven. He wishes for us to long for that place. And pain has a way of keeping our hope there, rather than on Earth. This is a good thing, for Heaven promises more wonderful, beautiful things than those which are found here. Earth is for deciding whether we will love one another as well as our Creator; Heaven is where our experience of life will find its fruition.

(excerpt from article by Connie Strasheim -700Club)

Are you single and tired of being alone? You have a desire in your heart to meet someone who you can share your life with, who you can love and who will love you back, but somehow, that person hasn’t arrived yet and you’re wondering… will the time ever come?

It’s a big and complicated world out there, and people have a hard time finding each other. Yeah, you probably look around and see couples around you, and you think why can’t I be like them? Why can’t I find a partner like they have? And you turn to God, asking why He hasn’t given you what He had given everyone else… a perfect match. There’s an unmistakable longing in your heart to fall in love and be happy. But the perfect guy or girl just hasn’t come yet!

It’s hard, and frustrating… but you know what, when you ask God all these questions, like “WHY?” or “WHEN?”, don’t think He doesn’t hear you because He DOES. You say, “But I’ve been praying for this my whole life, and yet I still haven’t found the one.” And you become impatient and even more lonely… But always remember that God has His own perfect timing. He hears what is in your heart, your desires and your prayers, and He will give what you want in His OWN TIME. He knows EXACTLY what you need at a certain point in your life, and He also knows when to give you the things that you’re asking for. All you have to do is to continue TRUSTING and wait patiently for that time. It’s definitely easier said than done, but have FAITH. God promised to bring you love, and HE will fulfill it when the right time comes.

God knows everything, He knows the person that’s meant entirely for us, where that person is, what that person is going through, and one day, He will bring that person to our lives, He will take that person by the hand and lead them to us, so we can experience true love. We just have to BELIEVE.

There’s this song that’s just so inspiring and speaks about God bringing two people together, it’s entitled “He Brought Me To You”. The lyrics and words are beautiful and the song relays a wonderful message about God bringing love into our lives. If you’ve been waiting for so long and you’re losing hope and thinking of giving up… think again. Just hang in there. God will bring you love, He will bring you to the person meant for you, when the RIGHT time comes.

Have you found the one meant for you?

Copyright©2008angel

“Can’t we start over again?”

Have you experienced saying these words to someone you love? It’s hard to say goodbye to the one we love. So we do all we can to save our relationships when it’s on the verge of breaking up. It doesn’t hurt so much to the one leaving, but to the one left behind, it’s painful. That’s why we do whatever we can to hold on, to work things out, to make everything right again.

In relationships, there will always be problems and hardships that couples have to experience in order to grow and test their love for each other. And when these problems occur, there’s always the risk of the relationship not being able to pull through, that’s why it results in a breakup. But there are relationships that are resilient and are able to recover from the blow, and as a result, the couple’s love for each other becomes stronger than ever. This takes a lot of effort and commitment on both parties to decide to work things out.

Petty fights and little misunderstandings are part of a normal relationship. But when big problems occur, like cheating, lying big time, family issues, etc., these are capable of ruining the relationship altogether. And after some time, taking into consideration all the hurt and pain that the problem caused, the couple can either decide to start over again or breakup for good.

In the case of a man wanting to leave because he’s had enough or no longer wants to be in the relationship, and the woman is still very much in love and refuses to accept the man’s decision, then she can probably ask for another chance, or ask if they can start all over again. But she has to be ready for the answer. This can work in some cases, but when the mind’s made up and the relationship is beyond repair, there’s no turning back.

Relationships are complicated in the sense that sometimes, it’s not always black and white. Feelings change, situations change, and most importantly, people change. Problems are just precursors, but ultimately, we are the ones who decide. It’s okay to ask for another chance, but after all is said and done, we have to respect our partner’s decision. Because we can’t force someone to feel a certain feeling just because we want them to. We have to be ready to hear the truth and accept it, no matter how difficult. Keep this in mind, the next time you find yourself asking, “Can’t We Start Over Again?”

Will you still hold on when he says “enough”?

Copyright©2008angel

To my Father, Brother, Best Friend, and Savior…

I’m taking this chance to thank you for everything you’ve done for me. No words can describe how grateful I am that you’re with me. All through my life, you never left my side, through the good times and the bad. I’ve been through so much, been through a lot of hurt and miserable moments, and through all that, you’ve helped me overcome my fears, my doubts, my weaknesses. I never could have done it without you. You helped me realize my worth, you made me feel that I am loved, no matter what.

Thank you so much… there have been times when I thought I couldn’t take the pain anymore, there were times when I felt I could no longer stand the loneliness, but you were there to comfort me and tell me that everything is going to be all right. Through wonderful people and things, you reached out to me and reminded me that life goes on. Because of you, I saw that life is worth living, that there’s still so much in store for me, that I shouldn’t waste my life in unimportant things. You taught me how to TRUST, and you strengthened my FAITH. It wasn’t easy, but I did it. I did it because you were there… you held my hand… and that was all I needed.

I’m so BLESSED to have you. Thank you for protecting my heart, I feel so at peace when I know that you’re in control. I don’t ever wanna be without you. Thank you for using me for your glory. I love you so much.

With all my heart,
Angel

I attended a friend’s wedding this weekend and I was pleasantly surprised when my friend (the bride) sang one of my favorite songs ever, Something In Your Eyes, by Dusty Springfield. She cried when she was singing, and I almost cried with her. I love the song so much, that’s why I couldn’t help but become teary-eyed while I was watching her sing the song to her new husband. Theirs is a beautiful love story and I’m so happy she found her perfect match. Check out the lyrics of the song here.

I think Something In Your Eyes is a really beautiful song. It has such a wonderful melody, and the words have so much meaning. I love Dusty’s voice on it too. Try to listen to the message of the song, and I’m sure, if you have experienced love, or know what love is, you’ll appreciate the song. It speaks of love, how after all the waiting and loving, they end up together, forever. Seeing that something in your lover’s eyes, you know where you’re life is leading to… a life with that person. If I were to get married someday to the love of my life, I’ll definitely sing this song to him. What can I say, I’m a hopeless romantic, so just listening to this song, gives me goosebumps.

Seeing my dear friend marry the person she loves and the perfect match for her… it’s a wonderful feeling. I could see the happiness and love in their eyes as they looked at each other. There’s something in their eyes that’s unmistakably real and true. It’s wonderfully amazing to see my friend so radiant and happy on her wedding day. She has been through so much in her life, and she deserves this guy who loves her unconditionally. I’m just so happy for her.

Copyright©2008angel

When I look at myself in the mirror, I see an imperfect person. Just trying to fit in… trying to do my best in this crazy world. Sometimes it’s hard when I see people around me and I get discouraged, but one thing I constantly remind myself, is never to let them destroy my faith and beliefs. Because these are the things that make me the person that I am. I refuse to let other people get me down. The world may have so much evil in it, but it’s also full of good… of love and hope. And that’s what I want to incorporate into my own world. Someday, I’d like to look at myself in the mirror, and what I’d want to feel is contentment. More than anything else, I’d like to look at myself and be satisfied about how I lived my life. When all else is said and done, I’d like to be able to smile and say to myself, I did my best.

Copyright©2008angel

When it comes to financial matters, it’s good to have both savings account and checking account. It pays off, because sometimes when you don’t have cash at hand, it’s good to be able to just write a check and purchase whatever stuff you want to buy. Some people find it convenient to write checks so they get Checking Accounts from their banks. There are places which offer free checks so if you’re interested, might as well avail them. It all depends on you, whichever method you think fits you. You can use credit cards or cash, but there are people who prefer checks for their own personal reasons. And I think checks are professional looking, don’t you agree?

For me, there’s a distinct way in which a man can make a woman FEEL. Listening to this song and understanding the lyrics, it actually is an accurate description of how love can capture a woman and make her feel all different kinds of emotions from a man. Some may feel that the words are an exaggeration, but that’s what makes it even more meaningful and deep. Think about it, even just a simple touch from a man you love can bring shivers, literally. Right? A simple smile can make the knees go weak. Even when your eyes are closed, he seems to be the only face that keeps popping up.

It’s amazing how a man can cause a variety of feelings in a woman… it’s something that has no comparison really. We can use metaphors to explain them or compare them with other things, but everything is still just shallow representations of what we REALLY feel deep inside. You have to experience it for yourself to know exactly what it’s all about.

I just love the melody of this song and the attempt to explain how a man can make a woman feel. Can you relate to the song?

Copyright©2008angel

Nowadays, we can’t afford to get sick anymore. With high prices of medicine and hospitalization bills, getting seriously sick is a huge blow, not just to our bodies but to our pockets as well. Proper diet, a healthy lifestyle, plus taking multivitamins can only do so much. We can never really predict when sickness will occur, or when we will be struck by virus or bacteria. It always helps to be financially prepared. That’s why health insurance is so vital these days. Investing in one will allow you to rest easy knowing that in case of a health emergency, you’ll be sure that you’re going to be well taken care of. Life is worth living so we should learn to value our health. What do you say?

I looked at the clock ticking,
I asked myself, what if I can turn back time?

I’ll turn the hands back to 10 minutes ago…
My co-worker came to talk to me about a problem
But I was too irritated… I couldn’t even smile at her.

I’ll turn the hands back to 12 hours ago…
My brother asked for help with homework
But I was too busy… I snapped at him and turned him down.

I’ll turn the hands back to 8 days ago…
My friend came to apologize for a mistake she did
But I was so hurt… I stuck to my pride and turned away.

I’ll turn the hands back to 5 months ago…
My father scolded me for staying out too late at night
But I was so angry… I said hurtful things and walked away.

I’ll turn the hands back to 3 years ago…
I took someone for granted, and now he’s gone,
To a place where I can’t follow…

If only I could turn back the hands of time
If only I could… I’ll do everything right.

Copyright©2008angel

I saw this TV show the other day about friendship, and it was so heartwarming I cried. It was a true story of a man who discovered friendship in an unlikely way. He took pity in a homeless person on the street, so he helped him, gave him money and spent time with him… and this compassion led to a relationship wherein he was able to treat this person as his own brother. He learned to trust him, he believed in him and he even taught him to read and write. He even influenced him to stay away from the “gang” that was always dragging him along crime sprees.

But their friendship was put to a huge test when he arrived one day at his home and found his room ransacked. He was told that the one responsible was the “gang” and that his friend was seen with them. He couldn’t take it, he was heartbroken and he felt betrayed. He rushed to the precinct where they were contained, and expressed his disappointment and anger. His friend told him he didn’t have a choice, because they were threatening him that if he didn’t go with them, they will hurt the friend that took him away from them in the first place… HIM. Which was the truth really. But he didn’t believe him, he was so angry. The scene was so heartbreaking. The pain of betrayal. I could almost feel it.

One night, he was walking home when the gang ambushed him and one was about to stab him with a knife. Well, guess what happened? His friend took the blow instead. He dived out of nowhere, and he was the one stabbed instead. He died. With the death of his friend, he wondered, what would have happened if he had given his friend another chance. Things might have turned out differently. But too late, his friend died saving his life.

After watching the show, it made me think. There really ARE people out there who are willing to die for a friend. Imagine yourself taking a bullet to save a friend’s life. I mean, it’s not something EVERYONE can do. Would you do that for someone? Or rather, do you have someone in your life, a friend… that you’re willing to die for? It once again made me realize how amazing TRUE and UNCONDITIONAL friendship can be. It’s even worth dying for.

Do you have a friend worth dying for?

Copyright©2008angel