Dear Mommy,
I am in Heaven now, sitting on God’s lap.
He loves me and cries with me;
for my heart has been broken.
I so wanted to be your little girl.
I don’t quite understand what has happened.
I was so excited when I began realizing my existence.

I was in a dark, yet comfortable place.
I saw I had fingers and toes.
I was pretty far along in my developing,
yet not near ready to leave my surroundings.
I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.
Even from my earliest days,
I felt a special bonding between you and me.

Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you.
Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry.
I heard Daddy yelling back.
I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon.
I wondered why you cried so much.
One day you cried almost all of the day.
I hurt for you.
I couldn’t imagine why you were so unhappy.

That same day, the most horrible thing happened.
A very mean monster came
into that warm, comfortable lace I was in.
I was so scared, I began screaming,
but there was no sound.
I guess they had you all pinned down
because you never once tried to help me.
Maybe you never heard me.

The monster got closer and closer
as I was screaming and screaming,
“Mommy, Mommy, help me, please; Mommy, help me.”
Complete terror is all I felt.
I screamed and screamed
until I thought I couldn’t anymore.

Then the monster started ripping my arm off.
It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain.
It didn’t stop.
Oh, how I begged it to stop.
I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off.
Though I was in such complete pain,
I realized I was dying.
I knew I would never see your face,
or hear you say how much you love me.
I wanted to make all your tears go away.
I had so many plans to make you happy.
Now, I couldn’t; all my dreams were shattered.
Though I was in utter pain and horror,
I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.

I wanted more than anything to be your daughter.
No use now, for I was dying a painful death.
I could only imaging the terrible things that they had done to you.
I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone,
but I didn’t know the words you could understand.
And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them;
I was dead.

I felt myself rising.
I was being carried by a huge angel
into a big, beautiful place.
I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.
The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap.
He said that He loved me, and He was my Father.
Then I was happy.
I asked Him what the thing was that killed me.
He answered, “Abortion. I am sorry, my child;
for I know how it feels.”

I don’t know what abortion is;
I guess that’s the name of the monster.

I’m writing to say that I love you,
and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl.
I tried very hard to live.
I wanted to live.
I had the will, but I couldn’t;
the monster was too powerful.
It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me.
It was impossible to live.
I just wanted you to know how I tried to stay with you.
I didn’t want to die.

Also, Mommy,
please watch out for that abortion monster.

Mommy,
I love you and I would hate for you
to go through the kind of pain I did.
Please be careful.

Love,
Your baby girl

Will you still love me even if I’m not perfect? Will you still love me even if I’m not the kind of person you wished I were? Will you still look into my eyes with warmth even if you saw my shadows? Will you still hold my hand even if you knew there will be times I’d let you down? For though I yearn to take care of you as I should, though I desire to love you with a love that never falters and fades, my knees tremble this very moment that you hold me in your arms.

Shall I kiss you? Shall I hold your hand and bask in the light of your spirit knowing that I have my darkness, knowing there will be times that the light of my love will sometimes be overshadowed by the darkness that is in me?

Sometimes I’d be silent and I might bore you. I may not laugh at your jokes, and you may not understand the spell that’s enshrouding me. Sometimes I’d get troubled and I’d fail to put into words what the hell it is that troubles me. I wouldn’t be good company then, and I couldn’t make you smile.

Sometimes I’d get moody and I might not enjoy the things you’d like us to do together. Sometimes I’d lose my temper and I’d no longer act like the fine person who stands before you today. Sometimes I’d get jealous and I might say things I don’t really mean. Sometimes I’d talk too much that I might drive you away.

Sometimes I’d get touchy and I’d get easily hurt. And no matter how mature I try to be, at times I’d act in childish ways. I’d demand things I shouldn’t, I’d say things I shouldn’t say. And no matter how much I desire to protect you and make you happy, sometimes I’d be the one who’d cause you the most pain.

If you will love me I cannot promise you that I will not hurt you. I cannot promise you that I will not make you cry and that I’ll never break your heart. But if you will love me, I will bare my whole self naked before you, and I will reveal to you my soul. If you will love me, you can be certain that it is I that you will love, not a mask that fools you and gives you only what your eyes desire to see. If you will love me, you can be certain that you will love the depths of me, all of me that is in me, and I in turn will love you with all of me, with all my soul, with all my mind, with all my spirit, with all my flaws and beauty, and with all my very heart.

From: itakeoffthemask.com

Dear Father, the noise of the world is too great; the demands of the day too high. Things are happening so fast that they are over even before I begin to realize that they have come. I don’t know anymore which of the things I do makes any sense at all. I don’t know anymore where I am going though too often I find myself rushing about so much, afraid that I might be left behind if I care to find a single moment of peace.And yet this time I can no longer drag myself into the chaos where I chose to live. Cup after cup of brewed coffee could no longer give me the energy I need to finish loads and loads of paperwork that lay upon my desk. I pray to you dear Father. I pray for the peace you have promised us, a peace that transcends all understanding, a peace that never shatters with the most troubling shadows of the night. Silence the worries that lurk upon my mind, the fears that have only driven me to burnout and stress.

In this moment of prayer, let there be silence. Let there be peace. Free me from my fears and calm my shaking nerves. Let me see clearly that which really matters in life. I offer you everything, that in my nothingness I may find all that I need. Your Presence is all that I need O God, and in your Holy Presence there is peace.

Source: itakeoffthemask.com

Often, we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to..
Though that doesn’t mean that we’ve stopped loving them..
Or we’ve stopped to care..
Sometimes goodbye…is a painful way to say I love you..
But how can I forget you when your always on my mind?
How can I not want you when you’re all I want inside?
How can I let you go when I can’t see us apart?
How can I not love you when you control my heart?
The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn’t want to be held on to..
Real tears are not those that fall from the eyes and cover the face…
But those that fall from the heart and cover the soul.
Sometimes I wish I had never never met you..
Because then I could go to bed at night…
Not knowing there was someone like you out there.
I don’t know what to do now that we’re apart; I don’t know how to live without the other half of my heart.
Maybe if I had just looked away that first day you came towards me everything would be different.
And my heart wouldn’t be breaking right now.
I always know looking back on the tears would make me laugh..
But I never know looking back on the laugh would make me cry.

A million words wouldn’t bring you back…I know because I’ve tried..
Neither would a million tears..I know I’ve cried..

They say that if you love someone you should let them go,
But they never say what to do when they don’t come back.
I don’t remember us but when I do…
It brings a smile to my lips and a tear to my eye.
I will never regret loving you… only believing you loved me too…
How can I love again…
When I can’t stop loving the one that hurt me so much?
My heart only fought for what it wanted.
Now my heart is having to fight to let you go.
Every moment I spend by your side, I feel a stab within my heart…
As I come to realize that the tears that fall from my eyes…
Are truly the blood from my broken heart…
Every morning I wish it were night again…
For it is only at night and in the depth of my dreams that I can feel you..
If you love something, let it go, if it comes back to you it was truly meant to be. They say “never regret the past because at one point everything was what you wanted” but what if what I wanted then makes me cry.

I thought I would die if I couldn’t have you.
Now that I know I can’t have you, death seems inferior.
I cried when I know I lost you, afraid I had lost it all.
Then I realized that losing you, didn’t have to mean I lost me.
Only love can break a heart; only love can mend it again.
How can I see what’s in front of me, when I’m blinded by tears..
Love can come and go, but your heart will remain in you forever…

- vainly

Through every struggle, you were there. Through every crying session, every tear, every pain, you were there to help me overcome it all. I couldn’t have made it this far without you Lord. You’ve seen me through everything. Through my worst days and my worst moments. Please guide my decisions, lead me to the right path. I’ve been lost so many times, and sometimes I still feel lost. But please take my hand and lead me to where you want me to be. Because that’s also where I want to be. I’m sick and tired of living a life with no direction. Please help me. Please lead the way. I want a peaceful and happy life. I want to live a life where I am not hurting anybody. A life without anger and bitterness and enemies. Please help me find myself once again Lord. After everything that I’ve gone through, I know I deserve to be happy too. And I’m willing to work on that. But I need all the help I could get. I can’t do this without you Lord. I need you.

Dear God,

How do I get over him? If we’re not meant to be together, why does this stupid heart still keep shouting his name? I know I’ve surrendered everything to you Lord, including this love I have for him. I know that this is beyond my control now. I made a decision to end our relationship, and I have to stick by that decision. I hope that one day, you will change my heart. You will slowly change this love I have for him. And although there are days when I know I’d be okay, there are also times when I’d just break down and cry. There’s still love left in my heart. And I don’t know if I’ll ever get over him. I’ve tried meeting other guys, but my heart still keeps coming back to him! I don’t know if I should be more patient and allow some time for my heart to heal. I just don’t know how long this will last. Please Lord, if he’s not the guy that you want for me, please change my heart. If he’s not the guy for me, I will embrace that truth with all my heart. But I’m praying that you’ll change my feelings. Change my heart and prepare it for what’s to come. I want to follow the road that you’ve mapped out for me, Father. Please help me to accept whatever happens next…

Dear God,

I’m doing this for you… I’m letting go… I’m giving up the greatest happiness I’ve ever known… because You made me feel that it’s the right thing to do. I’m so confused and I don’t know if this is really what you want me to do… but I took a risk. I took a huge risk. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done… but thank you for giving me the courage to do it.

This is the best thing to do, right? I think I’ve made the right decision. But why am I crying? Why do I feel so miserable and alone? Will this wound ever heal? Will the pain ever go away? Will I regret this for the rest of my life? They say that when one door of happiness closes, another will open… so I’m holding on that hope. The hope that you want something better for me, and at the end of it all, it will be worth the sacrifice.

I’m doing this for you, Father. My great sacrifice. Please help me through this coz I can’t do this on my own…

To: YOU
Date: TODAY
From: THE BOSS
Subject: YOURSELF
Reference: LIFE

I am God.Today I will be handling all of your problems. Please remember that I do not need your help.

If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do not attempt to resolve it. Kindly put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box. All situations will be resolved… but in My time, not yours.

Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold onto it by worrying about it. Instead, focus on all the wonderful things that are present in your life now

If you find yourself stuck in traffic; Don’t despair. There are people in this world for whom driving is an unheard of privilege.

Should you have a bad day at work; Think of the man who has been out of work for years.

Should you despair over a relationship gone bad; Think of the person who has never known what it’s like to love and be loved in return.

Should you grieve the passing of another weekend; Think of the woman in dire straits, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week to feed her children.

Should your car break down, leaving you miles away from assistance; Think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.

Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror; Think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair to examine.

Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, asking what is my purpose? Be thankful. There are those who didn’t live long enough to get the opportunity.

Should you find yourself the victim of other people’s bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities; Remember, things could be worse. You could be one of them!

Author Unknown

Last night, I sat by the piano, which has been left untouched for so long now. As my fingers glided through the keys, I searched my mind to find that perfect song to express how I feel right now. An image of you flashed through my mind, it was as if you were right there in front of me, smiling that wonderful smile of yours. My heart ached once again.

Then my fingers found the perfect song. A beautiful song by Expose says it all. It says perfectly what my heart is trying to say. As I’m playing it on the piano, I just hope that you can hear the music in my heart… maybe someday… but for right now, I’ll Say Goodbye For The Two Of Us…

When you wake up,
And find me gone tomorrow
Don’t think I meant to hurt you
I just did what we knew I had to do.

And all the time we knew
The time was never right for us
Time to leave this love behind
I could never leave you
Baby if I see you cry

I’ll say goodbye for the two of us
Tonight while you sleep
I’ll kiss you softly one last time
And say goodbye, like I know we must
There’s just no other way
And I couldn’t bear to see your heart break
So I´ll wait till your asleep to say goodbye

Please realize
How hard it is to do this
I’m trying to make it through this
Say goodbye just as gently as I can.

Please try and understand
This time just wasn’t the time for us
We knew I couldn’t stay
But that don’t make it easier to leave you
So while I can find the strength…

Before your arms embrace me
Before your kisses take me
Before your eyes can make me stay

I’ll say goodbye for the two of us
Tonight while you sleep
I’ll kiss you softly one last time
And say goodbye

When you wake up,
And find me gone tomorrow
Don’t think I meant to hurt you…

Goodbye…