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Just A Fling

angel on May-4-2012

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Thank you for the moments. Those days with you were the best I’ve ever had. With you I got to experience something a girl like me can really appreciate. A walk along the beach, holding hands… kissing in public… sleeping with your arm around me… hanging out at night just staring at the moon and the stars… being in the water, just embracing each other and talking because I don’t know how to swim… sleeping through a movie in the theater while holding your hand because I’m too tired… the way you kissed my hand and my forehead at random times… the way you looked at me as if I’m the only girl you saw.

Though my time with you was very short, I’d like to thank you for making me feel special again. I haven’t had that in a long time. I forgot how it felt like to be romantic, to care for someone, and you reminded me of that. You awakened something in me that’s been asleep for some time. I haven’t been in a relationship for a long time that I didn’t even know I still had it in me. You came and made me FEEL alive again.

But sadly, you had to go. At the back of my mind, I knew what we had was over. I hoped you would stay, but I guess it never would have worked out anyway. Our time together, the attraction, the passion was there, but only for a fleeting moment. I thought I would be okay with it. That all I needed was a reminder that I deserved to be with someone and I deserved to be loved. I conditioned my mind to this idea. But why do I feel a certain longing now that you’re gone and I have no one to hold or kiss? Now I find myself longing for that feeling I felt when I was with you. I guess I just didn’t want that feeling to end. I wanted more.

Now all I have left are memories. I know I should just move on and look forward to meeting the guy that is willing to commit to me. Maybe I should do that. But for now, I miss you. I miss your kisses and your smile. I wish you were still here with me. I wish you could have fallen in love with me. I wish we were more than just a fling. I wish we had a shot at forever.

I Am Grateful

angel on Mar-18-2012

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Dear Lord,

I’d just like to take this chance to thank you for everything. You gave me so much love that saying “thank you” doesn’t quite cover it, but I also know that a simple “thank you” is all you want. Sometimes, I get so caught up with  my everyday life that I barely have the time to talk to you. I know that sometimes, I ignore you. But no matter what, I DO LOVE YOU. You are my everything. My whole life. Sometimes, I focus so much on problems instead of being grateful for all the things I have. For that, I’m truly sorry. BUT I AM GRATEFUL. I’m grateful for my family, friends, food, house, talents, health, love, money, entertainment, pets, and of course, MYSELF. I’m grateful for all the little things that I sometimes overlook. But most of all, I’m grateful for YOU, Lord. Thank you for always loving me and taking care of me. You are absolutely wonderful. I Love You!

The Old You

angel on May-29-2011

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Goodnight Baby

angel on May-18-2011

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Goodnight baby. I can’t wait to see you tomorrow. It’s not normal to not have you as a part of my life. Being away from you has made me want to be with you even more. You truly are a remarkable woman. I’ve never met anyone like you. You are so special, and so precious to me. It physically hurts me to think of you with someone else. You’re perfect for me. And I know you’ve said that you think you have to live up to being perfect, because I see you that way. But you don’t. It’s not any of the big things that make you special, it’s the little ones. A glance, a touch, a sweet kiss, it’s those little things that keep me falling in love with you over and over again. It’s the little things that count. I don’t see how any guy wouldn’t want to be with you. You deserve the best, and I hope I’m good enough even as I type this, I can feel your hands on me, and I love it. I love you. I hope this puts a smile on your face because it makes you so damn beautiful. :) Sweet dreams, I miss you, and you know I love you so much.

Answered Prayer

angel on May-16-2011

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Dear Lord,

You answered another prayer today. And I’m so grateful! This means so much to me, more than I even realize. This is a chance for me to prove to everyone that I can do it. This is my chance to grow, and prove to myself that I have what it takes. I’m both scared and excited right now, but one thing I know, I’m going to make you proud, Father. And I will definitely keep my promises, I won’t forget them. I could never have gone this far without you, Lord. You are my inspiration, my best friend, and my Savior. You made this happen. I can’t thank you enough. You are so good! Please be with me in this new journey. Because with You by my side, I know I’ll be more than okay. I love you so much!

Good Morning, God

angel on Apr-22-2011

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Good morning Heavenly Father!

I am very busy today, but knew I needed to stop and talk to You before rushing into my day. Forgive me for being too aggressive at times and rushing into projects that I never brought to You in prayer. I’ve done so many stupid things and made some wrong decisions, yet You have kept Your hand upon me. I’m so thankful for that. Now purge my agenda today. Take out of my life those who break my focus off Your assignments. Bring into my life those who grow Your dream within me. Protect me. Talk to me. Keep Your angels around me every hour of this day. I will speak Your name with joy and thanksgiving. I will celebrate Your presence and tell others of Your laws. I shall embrace Your wisdom every single day of my life.

In Jesus Name, Amen

A Letter From Mom And Dad

angel on Apr-6-2011

I cried after watching this video. The letter is so touching. Most of you have seen this already, but some might need to be reminded. Our parents deserve love and respect, and they deserve to be taken care of. So guys, please show your parents how much you love them, and please give back to them, before it’s too late. You might not have another chance.

Future Boyfriend

angel on Apr-2-2011

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Dear Future Boyfriend,

I’m sorry for the fights that we’ll get into. I’m sorry for making you cry. I’m sorry for lying. I’m sorry if I get jealous. I’m sorry if I act childish sometimes. I’m sorry if I’m a pain in the ass sometimes. And I’m sorry for everything that I’ll do to make you unhappy. I thank you for all the smiles that you’ll bring me, all the happiness you can give me. I thank you for being there for when I need you the most. Thank you for brightening up my day. If you make me cry, then that’s okay. Just don’t make that a habit. If you hold my hand, hold it tight so that you can make sure that I don’t slip away. If you hold me, just know that I won’t stop smiling. I want you to know that if I ever do slip away, I didn’t want to, but it was something that I couldn’t help. And when I realize how stupid I was, I hope that you still haven’t given up on me yet. And I hope that you’ll still be there to give me another chance because I would give you that second chance.

If you make me cry, then that’s okay. They say that guys aren’t worth my tears, but I want you to be the guy that’s worth my tears. I know that there’ll be times where I can’t always make you happy. I know that there will be times where I won’t be able to see you because of my parents, but know that I really just want to be with you right at that moment and know that I just want to be in your arms. I don’t need you to kiss me every minute like how some couples are because I’d rather you just surprise me. I’ll love it when you make me laugh, even if it’s something completely stupid, a cheesy pick up line, a silly face, anything, I’ll love it. I’ll introduce you to my friends if you want and you can introduce me to yours, but that really doesn’t matter to me. Knowing you is good enough for me.

I won’t fall for any of your friends because I know how much you’d hate that and why would I want them when I have you? I just hope that you can do the same. I’ll watch movies with you all day if you wanted to - your favorite movies, my favorite movies, new movies, any movie. We can go to the park and run around you can chase me around the playground. We can take a train to New York and then wind up not getting off until the last stop. When we do get off, we can just take another train and it won’t matter which stop we get off at. We can stay up all night on the phone and not even say anything to each other. You don’t need to shower me with gifts and roses or spend every money in your wallet to keep me. I’m not the selfish or materialistic type. All I want is some good quality time. We could be laying around, doing absolutely nothing, and I’ll be more than satisfied. Future boyfriend, I hope that I’ll meet you soon.

-S.L.W. (publicnightmares)

Proposal

angel on Mar-27-2011

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Au Revoir

angel on Mar-5-2011

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I will never forget you. I will look back and I’ll always be thankful that you came into my world. I feel so BLESSED that I was given the chance to love you. You came and brought so much meaning into my life… you brought love and care, and so many wonderful things and for that I will forever be grateful.

But now, that chapter in our lives has come to an end. It hurts, yes… a lot. But I want you to know, I have no regrets whatsoever. I don’t regret knowing you and loving you, because you’re one of the best things that’s ever happened to me. You came and taught me how to love and you showed me what it’s like to be loved in return.

Even though it didn’t work out, I’m glad that once in my life… I met and loved someone like you. You changed my life in the most beautiful way… you gave me one of the happiest, most unforgettable experiences a girl could ever have. I will NEVER be sorry that I fell in love with you. Being sorry for what happened between us would be like denying what I felt about you. And I can’t do that.

You brought so much happiness into my life. And that happiness is worth all the pain that I’m feeling right now. I know that our times together will only be just a memory from now on… but I’ll treasure those memories, hoping that someday, I will be able to look back without bitterness in my heart… I’ll keep those memories with me, because in time, they’ll remind me of a very special person… my first love: YOU.

I know I’m not perfect, and I’ve made my own share of mistakes. I’ve done things I’m not very proud of… and for that, I’m sorry. But if there’s one thing that I’m proud of, it’s the fact that I loved you unconditionally. I would have wanted to fight for you… but I realize now that there really is NO fight. You were supposed to come into my life, and you did. God sent me an angel… He sent YOU… to inspire me to live life to the fullest, and to show me what love’s really like… and now thanks to you, I’m much wiser. And stronger.

Thank you for everything. For all the love we shared and all the priceless moments. I’m letting you go and I hope you’ll find your own happiness. I think I will never really be the same without you, since you’ve already become a huge part of me… but I realize now that you won’t actually be gone completely… because I’ll always have you here with me… in my HEART. I’ll always love you.