Thank you for the moments. Those days with you were the best I’ve ever had. With you I got to experience something a girl like me can really appreciate. A walk along the beach, holding hands… kissing in public… sleeping with your arm around me… hanging out at night just staring at the moon and the stars… being in the water, just embracing each other and talking because I don’t know how to swim… sleeping through a movie in the theater while holding your hand because I’m too tired… the way you kissed my hand and my forehead at random times… the way you looked at me as if I’m the only girl you saw.

Though my time with you was very short, I’d like to thank you for making me feel special again. I haven’t had that in a long time. I forgot how it felt like to be romantic, to care for someone, and you reminded me of that. You awakened something in me that’s been asleep for some time. I haven’t been in a relationship for a long time that I didn’t even know I still had it in me. You came and made me FEEL alive again.

But sadly, you had to go. At the back of my mind, I knew what we had was over. I hoped you would stay, but I guess it never would have worked out anyway. Our time together, the attraction, the passion was there, but only for a fleeting moment. I thought I would be okay with it. That all I needed was a reminder that I deserved to be with someone and I deserved to be loved. I conditioned my mind to this idea. But why do I feel a certain longing now that you’re gone and I have no one to hold or kiss? Now I find myself longing for that feeling I felt when I was with you. I guess I just didn’t want that feeling to end. I wanted more.

Now all I have left are memories. I know I should just move on and look forward to meeting the guy that is willing to commit to me. Maybe I should do that. But for now, I miss you. I miss your kisses and your smile. I wish you were still here with me. I wish you could have fallen in love with me. I wish we were more than just a fling. I wish we had a shot at forever.

When we fall in love, we automatically give the other person the power to hurt us. Anyone can hurt us, but the wound is especially greater if it’s done to us by someone we love.

I can still remember what it used to be like when I was in a relationship and I was dependent on my partner, emotionally. I needed him to validate my feelings, acknowledge my emotions, and make me happy. I remember what it felt like to be at his mercy. It was my own fault, because I gave him so much power over me. When we broke up, I was struggling to get used to my old self again. I started to rely on myself more for my own happiness.

It’s a great feeling to break free from the power someone has over you. It’s really liberating. Imagine all those times when you would cry over something he said, when you would spend the rest of your day miserable because you had a fight, or what about those times when you let him dictate how you would act? Imagine how it felt like depending your happiness on him. Did it feel good? It made you feel pathetic and alone and trapped, right? When we give our partners power to hurt us, we give them this because of our connection to them. We, in turn, have the power to hurt them too, but we don’t do it because we love them.

Sometimes we hurt the ones we love without meaning to, unintentionally. But this is what love’s all about, right? It’s all part of the package. What we can do is to increase our own self worth, so when the person we love hurts us, it’s easier to get back up and heal. Working towards breaking free of the negative aspects of a relationship is always good advice. And that includes breaking free from harmful energies and things that a relationship is giving you. You owe it to yourself.

Boy: I broke up with her.
His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.
His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her.
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..
His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?
His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened..

And I’ll close my eyes, then I won’t see the love that you don’t feel when you’re holding me. Morning will come and I’ll do what’s right. Just give me till then to give up this fight. And I will give up this fight. ‘Cos I can’t make you love me if you don’t.

Before, I asked God to give me someone special to love.

I found you then lost you.

I asked God why and He answered, “But my child, the one you asked for asked for somebody else.”

S(HE’S) BR(OK)EN

Another one of my favorites from Christopher Cross!

I’m going crazy, acting like there’s nothing wrong, I can taste the truth every time we kiss…. is there something that you want to tell me? Is there something that I ought to know? Are we something that’s still worth fighting for, or should I simply let you go?