Looking Back In Time…
He hurt me a lot. But it was something that I had to go through. If I hadn’t gone through it, I wouldn’t be who I am now. There was no getting around it. The pain was excruciating. He was my first love after all. But as I try to remember the exact same feeling I felt back then, I couldn’t anymore. It has become a distant echo. The claws of pain and jealousy before was clutching and ripping my heart into tiny little pieces, but slowly as time passed by, I felt its grip loosen. Until I could no longer feel it. It lost its power over me. He lost his power over me.
For the first time in years, I feel FREE. My happiness doesn’t depend on him anymore. I have always imagined that I could never live without him. But I was wrong. Now, everything changed. My whole perception changed. There’s a little uncertainty in my future, like who I’m going to end up with, but I’m not worried about it. Not knowing is kind of exciting actually. The love I felt for him is still there, and I don’t think it will ever really die. But it’s not the kind of love that used to overpower me. Instead, it turned to the kind of love that acknowledges he was a huge part of my life and that I will always treasure the memories. I will always love him, just on a different level.
So for those who are brokenhearted right now, don’t despair too much. Grieve, but know that in time, you will be okay. You will be able to HEAL and MOVE ON. I was able to do it, so can you.
Your site was a gift to me today. I was in search of uplifting quotes and stumbled onto your blog and this entry. It’s as though someone reached into my head and wrote my thoughts down.
I was sitting here in tears, after seeing my ex husband for the first time in almost 2 years. We’d been together 7 years, married for one, when he came home one day, told me he’d slept with a mutual ‘friend’ of ours, that our marriage was over, and he wanted me to moved out before the end of the month. I didn’t even see it coming, my heart shattered and I thought my world had ended.
Almost 2 years passed, I was over him, I’d moved on, but seeing him and being in his arms as we hugged tore open all those healed wounds.
Now I have to start the process of healing again, but this time it won’t be as hard. My life is so much better now, and I like who I am and where I’m headed for the first time in my life.
Thank God for people like you that can put into works what others hearts only feel.
Thank you Leanne, your words mean a lot to me. It’s for this reason that I continue writing, in the hopes that some of my words can reach out to people. Thank you for letting me know it’s impact on you and congratulations for being a strong woman! God bless!
Thank you for this article. It’s so moving. Thank you for touching my heart!
I hope I will be able to say this one day. ‘Cause now it still hurts me a lot.
I feel the same neen. until now I don’t know how to move on. Im still so inlove with him
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