Dear God,

How do I get over him? If we’re not meant to be together, why does this stupid heart still keep shouting his name? I know I’ve surrendered everything to you Lord, including this love I have for him. I know that this is beyond my control now. I made a decision to end our relationship, and I have to stick by that decision. I hope that one day, you will change my heart. You will slowly change this love I have for him. And although there are days when I know I’d be okay, there are also times when I’d just break down and cry. There’s still love left in my heart. And I don’t know if I’ll ever get over him. I’ve tried meeting other guys, but my heart still keeps coming back to him! I don’t know if I should be more patient and allow some time for my heart to heal. I just don’t know how long this will last. Please Lord, if he’s not the guy that you want for me, please change my heart. If he’s not the guy for me, I will embrace that truth with all my heart. But I’m praying that you’ll change my feelings. Change my heart and prepare it for what’s to come. I want to follow the road that you’ve mapped out for me, Father. Please help me to accept whatever happens next…

There’s this guy in the gym who’s so gorgeous I usually use him as a motivation to not skip workout. Haha. He is so cool, he goes in with his laid back swagger, his hair tousled messily, wearing a nice T-shirt and faded jeans, with his hip watch that I’m sure is the latest model of Victorinox Swiss Army watches. And he has such a sexy smile too. One amazing package. Hehe. So when I’m slaving away on the treadmill, he comes to my side and asks me if I’m new in the gym. I said yes, and well… let’s just say I’m motivated to go to the gym as much as possible because of him.

There were a bunch of people who visited our office today. They were people from an insurance company. They spent a good 30 minutes explaining to us the importance of life insurance and how we will all benefit if we apply. I listened and I think it’s a wise thing to do actually. Especially nowadays when money is so tight, we need to set aside a few for our very own life insurance. We never know what’s going to happen to us, and it’s great to be prepared all the time. This one nice lady came to me and gave me a life insurance quote. I am actually really thinking about it seriously. There’s some wisdom in obtaining a life insurance.