Just Venting
Aaarghh, here comes the pain again. I thought I was way over this. Apparently not. It’s just one of those days, where I feel down and I don’t know why. I know I have to do better than this. I was rearranging stuff at home last night, and I saw a very old picture of us together. I flipped it and I saw his handwriting on the back. It was taken during our first year together, and it was so full of love and we were so happy, it brought back an ocean of memories. I cried. I haven’t cried in days, and I just couldn’t stop the tears. I know I have to put all that in a box somewhere where I can’t accidentally uncover it. I can’t reminisce right now. The wound is too raw. I know I’ve said I’m moving on, and I am. But it’s too early for reminiscing. I have to give myself more time. A lot more time.
But the good thing about it is that the pain doesn’t last long. It’s more of a wave actually. It washes over me then subsides rather quickly. And then I just feel the tiny aftereffects of the hit. It’s better than before, that’s for sure. I don’t wanna burden you guys with my emotions, but it just makes me feel a whole lot better writing this all down. So I hope you guys don’t mind. Have a great day or night wherever you are!
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It will take a while for everything to be okay. I think my first heartache lasted for a few months. But that didn’t stop me from getting nervous whenever I met my “then” gf in school (3rd year college). I was even so scared thinking that I would see her with another guy. But eventually, all these subsided and now I’m in a relationship that has only made me so happy.
Good luck to you!
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I know it will eventually… thanks Joseph!
good luck and every happiness to you and your girlfriend.
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