I went with my best friend to do some baby shopping in the mall today. She wanted to buy a new baby bedding for her 4 month old daughter. Lately, we haven’t seen each other as much and baby shopping is one way to bond, right? Anyway, we browsed for a while and finally found the cutest bedding ever. It had a flowery pattern with baby cherubs and bees on the sides. It was pink and it had some yellow and blue hues thrown in as well. It was just the right size too! So we didn’t think twice about buying it. We also bought a few new clothes. I always have fun shopping for a baby. I love babies. Maybe someday when I’m back here, I would be shopping for my own baby. Hehehe.

I’ve always been fascinated with architecture. I enjoy seeing high rise buildings, uniquely designed structures, and one of the kind architecture. They’re fascinating to look at. There are buildings that are made of stone, glass, steel, etc. But I rarely see steel buildings here in our city. I guess this kind of buildings are used for warehouses and slaughter houses. But whatever material they’re made of, as long as they’re beautiful to look at, that makes them interesting.

I don’t want to be jealous. I don’t want to feel this nagging pain in my heart. I’m trying really hard right now to think differently. To condition my mind that I can’t be the jealous ex. I need to accept the fact that he’s moved on apparently, and I have to do the same. I have to stop feeling this way. I have to embrace my new role in his life now. I am nothing more than a friend to him now, and I should act that way. I should just be happy for him that he’s moving on and he found someone new.

I guess I didn’t expect to feel this way. I thought it would be okay if I see him with another girl, since I should be getting over him now. It just sucks. I hate this feeling. What do you think I should do to stop jealousy on its tracks? Every time I think about it, it hurts. Oh man, when will this be over?

We watched a movie today. It was a local film that had me giggling and laughing. I can’t believe I felt like a high school girl during that movie. Haha. Anyway, I went home this evening after the movie, and I arrived in a dark front porch. I tried to turn on the lights, but the bulb was dead. I have to get into a store in the morning to buy one. I like this place downtown, they sell discount outdoor lights that are perfect for my front porch.

I didn’t feel like going to work today. Actually, I don’t feel like going to work any day at all. Haha. It’s not that I don’t like my job. I do. And I’m grateful that I have a job. But it can be really monotonous and boring. Just thinking about it, makes me want to skip it altogether. So this morning, I dragged my sleepy-eyed self out of bed, went to the sink, turned on the bathroom faucet, and splashed my face with cold water. Then I had a really cold shower, got dressed for work, grabbed a bite to eat, then off I went. It’s pretty much all I do every weekday, and that even adds to the monotony. Oh geesh, when can I vary up my routine and avoid feeling monotonous. Any suggestion guys?

• Those who have hurt you in the past cannot continue to hurt you now - unless you hold on to the pain and resentment… Your past is past, nothing will change it. You are only hurting yourself with your bitterness. For your own sake, learn from it and let it go…

• Maybe people need to be numb at times. It’s like a defibrillator that shocks the heart to stop it for a while… to give it a chance to beat again… ALONE. On its own.

• Time will come when you have to let go of someone who matters to you. Even if you try to stop it, you just can’t. Yes, it sucks especially when you know you’ve given your all and things still went wrong, even if you tried your best to keep the relationship. All things end, all things stop and all things fade, including a love you thought would last forever…

• It’s hard to run from a feeling that haunts you every now and then. It’s painful to tell your heart that you don’t need it. You keep on pretending that you are better to be alone, when in fact you feel so empty. But why take chances if you see no hope? Why try if there’s nothing to win for? Sometimes, it pays to wait. Never hurry. Let infatuation die a natural death and give birth to true love when it’s time. True love waits!

• There will always be that first true love. The one you first spent the night crying for. The one that never really worked out but you kept your hopes up too much. The one who got away. The one who taught you all you need to know about love. The one that until now, is the one you look back to whenever you try to love again.

I’ve been going to the gym for almost a month now and I’m learning a lot about exercise and how to lose fat and weight naturally. Exercise is a natural fat burner, and it’s good for our overall health. I personally think that we all need to exercise not just because we want to lose weight, but because it can do wonders for our bodies. I know most people hate exercising or working out in the gym because it’s boring and repetitive, not to mention it takes hard work! And most people just don’t have the time anymore. Well, you don’t have to go the gym to exercise, even just 5-15 minutes of exercise at home will do. Of course, like anything else, you have to have determination to be able to stick to an exercise program. But remember, you will benefit a lot with exercise. No pain, no gain, right? So get moving!