I’m so glad I finally found a copy of my favorite song when I was younger, it’s called “Why Do I Love You?“ by Geneva Cruz. I really love the melody of the song and I remember I used to play it over and over again. It was from a cassette tape back then, coz MP3’s weren’t discovered yet. I’ve been searching for this song for a long time, but I couldn’t find an MP3 version of it anywhere. But thankfully, I found one! So I thought I’d share it here.

It’s a sad song about longing, and being a victim of unrequited love. Of course when I was little I didn’t have any experience in love yet. I was just really taken by the melody of the song that’s why it became my favorite at a certain point. It’s another sad heartbroken song obviously… check out the lyrics below.

Why do I love you? If loving you only mean… bitter thoughts that you are near, and yet so far. Why do I love you? If seeing you only mean… sleepless nights, false hopes and dreams of loving you.

What more can I do, but dream of you… coz only there I could hold you close to me…

Why do I love you? Why did you hurt my heart that way? Why did you take my love away? Why do I keep on waiting and hoping yet I know… that you can never be mine again.

Why do I long for the tenderness of your kiss? The warmth of your touch is all I wish, but you’re so far…

Memories…
Sometimes they creep up at you,
Quite unexpectedly.
Dragging you back to a place…
You wish you’d never return to.
Bittersweet memories…
Of a past long gone…
Memories that were once moments…
Bringing back old wounds…
And familiar pangs of regret…
Glimpses of people and places,
That you want to escape from…
Wishing you could just let go…
Wishing you could just be free…
Leave them all behind, forever…
But then you never really do forget…
Because they cling to you.
Until little reminders bring them back
To consciousness again…
And you feel the waves of nostalgia,
Washing over you…
Tears are threatening to fall…
Memories come in a stampeding rush.
Both the good ones and the bad…
But it’s the good ones that hurt more…
They’re the ones that stay longer…
They’re the ones you long for…
But the truth is…
That’s all they are now…
Just memories, floating in the wind…
Just memories…

Copyright©2008angel

Which do you think is the more selfish sex, male or female? What about the more sensitive and understanding sex? Men are viewed as tough on the outside, while women are viewed to be more sensitive and emotional.

Have you read the book, Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus? It’s a great, informative book that discusses the individual differences between men and women, and it gives concrete examples about the way we each deal with things. Women think men are selfish because all they think about is themselves, work and other guy stuff. But according to the book, men are just wired this way. We all have different fulfillment desires, men and women differ with regards to this. But just because we need different things doesn’t mean we can’t meet halfway and reach some kind of compromise.

If women knew the drives of men and the fulfillment they need, then it would be easier to understand them. In the same way, if men knew and understood the ways of a woman’s mind and her drives, it would be easier to deal with them. The key is to know what each sex needs and wants.

It’s pretty unfair for both sexes to put the blame on each other when we don’t even understand ourselves in the first place. It’s easy to say, “My man is so selfish, all he does is work and he doesn’t have time for me.” But if you understand that “feeling successful” is one of the basic needs of men, then you’ll know how to deal with it. The same with women… if guys knew what drives a woman to be emotional, and what goes on with their roller coaster of emotions, they’ll be more understanding and sympathetic, and the world will be a much nicer and better place. Read the book guys, it’s really helpful.

Copyright©2008angel

I wanna buy a digital camera, since I love taking pictures, and I love preserving memories. For me, a good memory preserved in time is priceless. Especially when it’s captured in camera and you can stare at it all you like, experiencing the memory all over again. I surfed the web for affordable digital cameras and I found this site on the web that offers discounted prices for their Black Friday ads. Since Thanksgiving in the US is drawing near, most stores do this, they put their products on sale for the upcoming shopping rush. Even online stores do it, so might as well try and take advantage of them, right? I think I’ll look over their products and try to see which one I could buy.

My grandma is already 87 years old but she’s still quite energetic. Just last week, she hung out with us and even made a little dance move to the delight of her grandkids. My grandma could no longer see with her right eye, and her left eye is blurry because of astigmatism. We already had it operated but it wasn’t very successful. While searching the web, I discovered an eye correcting procedure called Lasik. It uses laser to alter the curvature of the cornea, removing tissue that causes low to high levels of astigmatism, as well as nearsightedness and farsightedness. It’s what patients prefer compared to other methods, because it has only a few side effects and they tend to recover quickly. I was thinking maybe we could have our grandma undergo this procedure, but she says she’s not up to it anymore. It just makes me realize how important our eyes are, and we shouldn’t take them for granted.

I got this text message from a friend the other day, that I really needed to hear. Of course I knew it already, but sometimes, somewhere along our busy lives, we need little reminders to keep the thought in our heads. Here’s what the text message said:

“BITTER REALITY - Not everything you want, though you work hard just to have it, is always meant to be yours, somehow you also lose…

SWEET REALITY - But when you lost someone or something, there will come a better one that you surely deserve more than anything… patience is still a virtue.“

Of course, I agree with this… but sometimes I tend to forget, sometimes I tend to slip. Sometimes, I tend to get impatient of waiting for that “something better”. So I guess this text message is another reminder from God that I have to extend my patience more. God often does that, He sends some subtle messages to us, we just have to recognize them.

Are you the type of person who gets jealous easily? When you see your boyfriend or girlfriend with someone else, does your brain go into overdrive making you think of negative scenarios? Or are you the type who is very secure in your relationship that you rarely, if ever, get jealous?

What is it that makes us jealous, anyway? Why do we get jealous? Is it because we’re insecure, and we feel threatened and afraid that we’re going to lose the people in our lives to someone else? Or perhaps we want to be in someone else’s shoes (although that sounds more like envy). Anyway, jealousy is one of the most destructive emotions ever, and it’s especially lethal to relationships if not controlled. Of course, we know this already… there are lots of self help books that discuss this. But jealousy is an emotion that can’t be cured by reading self-help books. It can be minimized, yes, and we can even change our reactions to it, but that doesn’t mean that we won’t feel it.

I think one main cause of jealousy, is insecurity. If we are insecure of ourselves, it just goes to show that we are also insecure of our partner’s love for us. So understandably, we get scared that he might find someone else better than us… right? And that’s why we get jealous. We tend to become possessive, and be wary of people who might take our treasure away from us. But can jealousy also help relationships? I think yes, if done in good context and with good reason, because it shows that we love our partners and we care about them. And sometimes it can be flattering too, to know that your boyfriend is jealous of another guy who seems to like you. But if he’s being unreasonable about it, then that’s a different story.

Jealousy is a negative feeling, and if done in excess, it’s one of the most painful and frustrating experiences, not to mention stressful, especially for women who are more emotional than men. It makes you paranoid and restless, with no peace of mind. And who would want to have that kind of feeling, right? So if you’re in a relationship where jealousy is a huge problem, you have to stop and evaluate where your jealousy is coming from, and deal with it right away. How do we do it? One thing we can do is feel good about ourselves, once we are secure of ourselves and secure of our love and relationship with someone, there’s no need to get jealous of others.

It’s important to curb jealousy early on in the relationship before it’s too late, because it just might save your relationship. You have to do this not only for yourself but for your partner as well. Remember, you are in control. Control your jealousy, don’t let your jealousy control you.

What do you do when you get jealous?

Copyright©2008angel