I feel so at peace now. I don’t know exactly at what point I was able to feel this way, but I’m so at peace with the state of my emotions now, it’s great.
Like I’ve said, I’ve realized a lot of things these past month. But lately, this peace that I’ve been experiencing, it’s a different kind of peace and I’m telling you, it’s wonderful. I realized that I’ve been creating my own kind of peace, for so long. In the past, I felt peaceful every time things go my way, like when things are going well at work, with my family, with my friends and loved one… but now I realize that even though I can create some kind of peace by my own, it’s of a poor kind. It’s shallow and fleeting.
But this peace that I’m experiencing right now, it doesn’t come from me or from anyone else. It comes from God. I know this because it’s such a different kind of peace, one that’s pure and encompassing. I can’t really describe it, it’s a kind of inner light that sustains me throughout the day. Don’t get me wrong, I still feel sad sometimes, and scared too. But somewhere deep inside, a certain kind of peace steadies me, calms me, and keeps me going.
Now I recognize the difference. And I’ll have God’s peace any day.